HERE I AM // REVIEWING TWO BOOKS AT ONCE // BECAUSE I’M COOL
actually it’s just because i only have enough thoughts of juniper lemon for a small small small review, and i have too many thoughts of crash and uhh yeah here i am
by julie israel
It’s been sixty-five days since the accident that killed Juniper’s sister, and ripped Juniper’s world apart.
Then she finds the love letter: written by Camilla on the day of the accident, addressed mysteriously to “You,” but never sent. Desperate to learn You’s identity and deliver the message, Juniper starts to investigate.
Until she loses something. A card from her Happiness Index: a ritual started by sunny Camie for logging positives each day. It’s what’s been holding Juniper together since her death – but a lost card only widens the hole she left behind. And this particular card contains Juniper’s own dark secret: a memory she can’t let anyone else find out.
The search for You and her card take Juniper to even less expected places, and as she connects with those whose secrets she upturns in the effort, she may just find the means to make peace with her own.
This is a smart, funny, poignant book guaranteed to make you laugh and cry – and maybe even take notes.
You know that feeling when you spend hours and hours and hours searching for something… and you just NEVER find it…?
YEAH. ME TOO.
I read this for BookTube-a-Thon, and I wish I hadn’t.
some reasons i wasn’t vibin’ with this
- it read like a middle grade novel, to be honest. I felt like the author (or mc, whatever) was talking down to me as a reader half the time
- juniper wasn’t all that likable, to be honest. she was pretty average and I feel like I should really like a character, you know?
- the romance between Juniper and whatevertheguysnamewas (was it Brand) (I don’t even remember it, writing this review half a month later, which goes to show how memorable these characters weren’t) was lackluster and honestly did nothing for me
- insignificant characters in my honest opinion
- the ending was infuriating. so very infuriating. I like books with closure, okay? this book had no closure. NONE. that pissed me off
If you wanted me to be invested and then piss me off, let me read this book. The NUMBER ONE reason why this book flopped for me was because we never find out who ‘you’ is. So if you’re reading this to find out who ‘you’ is, don’t do it. This is a coming of age novel about a young girl who is dealing with her sister’s death.
And no, the sister did not commit suicide, if that’s also what you were thinking. She simply died.
If you’re okay with insignificant characters and predictable characters, read this book. Yes, I realize that the characters had their “place”, because I feel as though the author could’ve gotten the same affect with less characters.
And again, I’ll repeat, the romance sucked. I don’t remember if his name was Brand or what, but we’re going to refer to him as Brand, okay?
The romance was so short-lived and unnecessary. They could’ve been friends, and I would’ve been happy. They could’ve been enemies, and I also would have been happy. Also, as a side note on Brand the character, I felt as though Julie made him tortured to add dimension and that just did not work for me. I felt like he was a cardboard cut out of Tortured Bad Boy™.
Such a disappointing read. I get that some people appreciate “open-endings”, but I am not one of them.
Jude Ryder and Lucy Larson are this generation’s Romeo and Juliet: Explosive. Sizzling. Tragic.
A steamy summer encounter with bad boy Jude means trouble for Lucy. Her sights are set on becoming a ballerina, and she won’t let anything get in her way . . . except Jude.
He’s got a rap sheet, dangerous mood swings, and a name that’s been sighed, shouted, and cursed by who knows how many girls.
Jude’s a cancer, the kind of guy who’s fated to ruin the lives of girls like Lucy—and he tells her so.
But as rumors run rampant and reputations are destroyed, Lucy’s not listening to Jude’s warning. Is tragedy waiting in the wings? This racy romance is hot, hot, hot!\
Referring to the summary… “This racy romance is hot, hot, hot!”
More like do not ready this obsessive romance, do NOT, NOT, NOT.
I genuinely cannot express my hatred for this book more than I will in this review. This book was problem after problem after problem. I started off by giving it 1.5 stars (half a star for being able to finish it, and half a star for the writer writing this monstrosity), but by the end of my Goodreads “reaction” review, I just… couldn’t. I dropped it to one star. I couldn’t justify the extra half.
mini sum of why i hated this “book”
- the author fucking destroyed Sawyer’s characters, like oH MY GOD, he deserved better
- Jude was not hot. Jude was a criminal. Jude was seriously a danger to society.
- Lucy was desperate for “love” so she settled for Jude. Her whole fixing problems shit was hella annoying. All she did was want to fix Jude! You can’t fix a person! They have to fix themselves!
- Crash was so cliched, it hurts
Diggin’ a lil deeper… I don’t give a fuck if Jude is “hot” or Sawyer is “preppy”, because Sawyer was the better choice… until the end of the book and Williams destroyed him. I mean, WOOOOO OKAY Jude is a Tortured Bad Boy™, let’s give him a medal! Better yet, a GIRL! No. No. No. Just because he’s “hot” and the residential bad boy, we need to have some common fucking sense, ladies.
Jude is a disaster and you all know it, your mother knows it, your father knows it, your dog knows… You know it. Jude is
borderline a criminal, and I don’t get why everybody (readers) sees through that and goes, “OHH but he’s so hot! He loves Lucy! Everything he does is for Lucy!”
He stole a car. HE STOLE A CAR.
I don’t give a shit if it was so he could be cool and drive Lucy to the homecoming! He could’ve taken her car! He could’ve done anything but steal a car! The worst part? In his mind he was borrowing. That is honestly the worst part. Theft is theft.
Worse than that, he left Lucy at the dance when the cops showed up because he stole the car. He left her there. And you know who saved her and brought her home? Sawyer.
Sawyer, the character that was destroyed to pieces. If you want to read more on that, you can read my Goodreads review and see the spoiler section, but I am unable to add spoilers here. Main point, Sawyer’s character was destroyed simply for the cause of putting Jude on a pedestal and making it “okay” for Lucy to go back to him at the end. Literally. The author destroyed Sawyer’s character for the sole purpose of glorifying Jude’s. Oh, look at Jude! He’s so great compared to Sawyer! Sawyer is horrible!!!!!!! Go Jude!11!!!!1!1
Okay, onto a few other points that need to be discussed regarding my hatred.
Lucy literally did whatever she thought Jude wanted her to, no questions asked. Okay, maybe a few questions, but in the end her hormones kicked in and bled through the voice of reason.
[Sawyer was] implying I had no backbone and did my boyfriend’s every bidding…
Yeah, well, you do, honey.
At this point in the novel, Lucy was ignoring Sawyer’s very existence, because guess what? Jude told her to. Yup. Jude told her to, so she pretended a person–one who was perfectly nice to her–didn’t exist. That’s the solution, isn’t it?
Jude was legit like, “Luce, don’t talk to Sawyer. He’s not good for you.” And she LISTENS. Not to mention the fact that EVERYBODY is telling her the exact thing but about Jude! But she doesn’t listen!!!!! What the hell!!!!
The ONE time she doesn’t listen to Jude is at the end of the novel when it was necessary for her to be noncompliant in order for the plot to move on. That’s just horrible.
I think the worst part about hating this book is that I read Williams’ other book, Lost & Found, and I loved it. This was just so very fucking pale in comparison.
I hated Lucy. I hated Jude. I hated what the author did to Sawyer. Holly was a fucking true. They were all tropes. It was so predictable. Stay far away unless you would like to commit self-mutilation.
That’s it for today 🙂
There’s my two reviews for two books that I just didn’t vibe with. Don’t be offended if you liked these books. Everybody has different tastes, and there’s nothing wrong with that!